Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Having a Dream

I want to write beautiful words.

That is what I've wanted to do my entire life. For as long as I can remember I wanted to write stories and books and thoughts and poems.

But somewhere along the line I just stopped writing.

I let life get in the way of my dream. And instead of hustling with it I let it disappear. I spent years thinking about writing, dreaming about having others read my words and making it something that I could be successful at. I would just dream though. I never put any action into it.

There are many times that I feel like I've lost the skill needed to write. I feel like I'm out of ideas, out of thoughts; like my creativity just drowned in the years of doing nothing.

And the big thing standing in my way of even trying is fear.

I am so scared that I will fail. That this talent that I believed I had was just a fantasy and that I was completely fooling myself. So I don't try. Because I can't fail if I don't even give it a shot.

But, I sit here, wishing to try. Wanting to write. But so scared of what words will form together.

I don't even know what I want to write, I just want to. I want my words to flow together to make something that others will enjoy.

So, here is where I begin. By sharing that I have a dream, that I still have it, that I want to do something with it.

And my promise to myself to write. To spend a little time writing every day. Whatever is on my mind, ideas poems, stories, blogs. Because if I just don't do it then my dream will never have a chance of being real. And if I begin to write again I will find my creativity, I will find my muse and I will develop determination. And above all I will get back the joy that it used to bring me.

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

What Have I Been Reading Lately

Every year I make goals for myself. And those goals always include reading. Because I love to read. But over the last few years I have lost some concentration when it comes to reading.

I can't read like I used to before. Books that I used to be able to read in a day take me much longer. And I have a harder time picking it back up and getting back into stories when I've taken a break.

But this year I'm making more of an effort.

I've made two sets of goals:
1. Read one book a month or 12 books for the year
2. Read two books a month or 24 books for the year

And so far this year I have read 12 books. So I am well on my way to reading 24.

I know it doesn't seem like much, especially since I used to read closer to 50-70 books a year, but I am well on my way.

And I also find myself really enjoying reading again. And I love it! And if I am reading it encourages my kids to also read. And Michael too. Reading books and visiting the library has become a family adventure!

So, on to what I've been reading so far this year.

I received The 5th Wave: The First Book of the 5th Wave Series for my birthday but I didn't start reading it until the start of the new year. This book follows Cassie through what happens to her and her family after aliens begin to terrorize the world. I really enjoyed this book. It had moments of great adventure. I liked it so much I had Michael read it and then we passed it along to his dad to read as well.

I began reading The Maze of Bones (39 Clues, No. 1) to the kids in the car when we had long waits. They really enjoyed this story about a family secret and the contest to find out what it is. Me, not so much. I was slightly disappointed with Rick Riordan because I have really enjoyed his other series. But Sidda enjoyed it enough that she has continued reading the series.

The Infinite Sea: The Second Book of the 5th Wave is a great sequel. It started pretty slow but picked up. I don't want to give too much away but I really enjoyed the story and I'm looking forward to picking up the next book soon.

Ready Player One: A Novel  This was a book that surprised me at how much I enjoyed it. Michael had received a recommendation and read it and when he finished he passed it on to me. The world has basically fallen apart, but people don't really worry about it because they are all connected to a virtual world OASIS all the time. When the creator of OASIS dies a contest begins to find his secret to be able to collect his fortune. Read it. It's good.

The Hunger Games Trilogy: The Hunger Games / Catching Fire / Mockingjay I realized that I hadn't read The Hunger Games Trilogy in about 5 years and decided to pick it up again. I had forgotten how much I really liked them. Most people have read them. If it's been awhile, read the again. It's worth it.

I started reading the Divergent Trilogy (3 Book Series) because Michael started reading it. I never had a big interest in it, but after finishing The Hunger Games I needed something new to read. And we had the books, so I picked them up. I had seen the first two movies, so I had a general idea of what the story was but I was mistaken. The movies barely match the books. I did enjoy the first two books but the third was terrible. I had to force myself to read it because I want to finish the story. It felt like there wasn't a solid plan in mind in it and it's almost a repeat of the same problems in the first two books. But they are worth a shot to read.

I am fully aware that Good Eats: Volume 1, The Early Years is a cookbook. But it's not just a cookbook. It has background about the show that it's based off of and lot's of information about the history of food that it talks about. This is more than a cookbook and I read it from cover to cover. I loved it. And I plan on trying out a few of the recipes found in it.

My Perfect Pantry: 150 Easy Recipes from 50 Essential Ingredients by Iron Chef Geoffrrey Zakarian was a fun read. Another cookbook that is more than a cookbook. Also, another one that I read cover to cover. It's full of recipes and information on food and tips and tricks. It was worth the read and has many recipes that I plan on trying out.

And that's it. Those are what I have been reading lately. I seem to be in a dystopian type of mood for my preferred fiction reading so far this year. But that's ok. It has gotten me reading again and that makes me happy.

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Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Bible Journaling: Gensis 1:1-2:3

This was one of the more fun Bible Journaling pages that I have done.

I liked the idea of of going through and working on each day of creation. Now, since I can't really draw things besides tress and words I had to look up how to draw animals in the most simple form possible. But I love how they turned out. Looks pretty cool to me. Because I have never in my life been able to draw an animal that actually resembles an animal.

It's amazing all the things that God created. That he thought them into existence. And he planned it all. Every single grain of sand, every leaf, every star, fish, elephant. He planned every single one. And then to top it all off, he created man. He created us, to love us and for us to love him and each other.

God really is just absolutely and completely awesome!